BUNNY

 

Artist: Newtons 2nd Law

Title: Trees (N2L Album)

John V. Mani on the vocals

 

Every girls weakness, a good looking guy who can sing (._.")

Dont Judge Me

 

[Verse 1:]
I don't wanna go there
We should never go there
Why you wanna go there?
I guess I gotta go there

[Pre-Hook:]
You're hearing rumours about me
And you can't stomach the thought
Of someone touching my body
When you're so close to my heart
I won't deny what they saying
Because most of it is true
But it was all before I fell for you

[Hook:]
So please babe
So please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
Cause it could get ugly
Before it gets beautiful
Please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
And if you love me
Then let it be beautiful
Let it be beautifu-u-ul, let it be beautiful
Let it be beautifu-u-ul, let it be beautiful

[Verse 2:]
Everything I say right now
Is gonna be used in another fight
And I've been through this so many times
Can we change the subject?
You gonna start asking me questions like:
"Was she attractive? Was she an actress?"
Baby the fact is

[Pre-Hook:]
You're hearing rumours about me
And saw some pictures online
Saying they got you so angry
Making you wish you were blind
Before we start talking crazy
Saying some things we'll regret
Can we just slow it down and press reset.
You're beautiful

[Hook:]
So please babe
So please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
Cause it could get ugly
Before it gets beautiful
Please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
And if you love me
Then let it be beautiful

[Bridge:]
Just let the past
Just be the past
And focus on things
That are gonna make us last
Take me as I am, not who I was
I'll promise I'll be, the one that you can trust

[Hook:]
So please babe
So please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
Cause it could get ugly
Before it gets beautiful
Please don't judge me
And I won't judge you
And if you love me
Then let it be beautiful
Let it be beautiful [x4]
Let it be beautiful ay
Let it be beautiful yeah [x3]

[Outro:]
I don't wanna go there baby yeah
We should never go there

 

LOVE HER!!!!

Memories

It was your soul that touched us all
Your time on earth was a heavenly gift from God
For those of us who knew you, your presence made us laugh
Memories of You linger in my mind as I face each day
I'll forever live my life with love and Patience
because that was your way
Thank you for the life lessons during your short stay
How I wish I framed your smile to hang in a permanent way

Your time on earth was a heavenly gift from God
For those of us who knew, your presence made us laugh
It was your soul that touched us all
It was your soul that touched us all
It was your soul that touched us all

Elle Varner-Not Tonight

I'm staring at him
But I forget to pick my face up off the floor, ooooh
We're in a crowd, but it feels like we're alone, ooooh
Oh my god he just looked at me
And I just wanna tell him something that he's never heard, oooh
But my lips won't let me tell him, tell him
I would say this

But maybe, maybe in another life
I could be the girl who walks up to the guy
And tells him, tells him how she feels inside
But, not tonight, no not tonight

What if he walks towards me
While all the blood is rushing right to my brain
What am I gonna say, what am I gonna say
I may stop breathing and freeze cuz
That's the story of my life
Wouldn't it be crazy
If he felt, how I felt, overwhelmed and terrified
But he took my hand
And he took his chance, can I have this dance
If only we were in a Cinderella story

Maybe, maybe in another life
I could be the girl who walks up to the guy
And tells him, tells him how she feels inside
But, not tonight, no not tonight

Who would I be
To make my feelings known
I need a little audacity but it's not in my bones
I'm standing here, terrified
Broken hearted, I could die, ooooohh

I'm staring at him
But I forget to pick my face up off the floor
I feel like a fool
And even though I do
I only wanna tell him that I love him more, more

Maybe, maybe in another life
I would be the girl who walks up to the guy
And say hey my name is Elle
And I think you're kinda fly
But not tonight, not tonight, tonight

Maybe, maybe in another life
I would be the girl who walks up to the guy
And tells him, tells him how she feels inside
But not tonight, not tonight

Diary of a Broken Girl...

Sleepless nights... Lonely Cold nights.

While everyone is getting ready to sleep, Im up every night thinking about you. With all the if's and the buts going through my head it just makes it harder for me to eventually fall asleep.
I'm so weak, so helpless I actually feel hopeless and I don't know what to do with myself anymore.

Sad thing is, I can't give up, I just can't help but fight this feeling of emptiness but till when?? till when will I fight?? will I ever get over this will I ever let go completely?
Nothing hurts more than wanting something you can clearly see you wont have, something you know you will never have, it will never be yours yet you still want it, you still fight for it and even though it hurts you're just not willing to let it go.

Sitting up at night listening to songs that just dev you even more but you can't press stop...You let it play over and over and over...
The very songs you listen to leave you confused, you don't know which one to listen to because one tells you to fight while the other says let go...

"Boy meets girl, they get on fine
I wasn't hers but she was mine
And then she left me...might as well cardiac-arrest me
She left me standing there, pain beyond compare"

"When morning comes again
I have the loneliness you left me
Each day drags by
Until finally my time descends on me"

"And I hear your words that I made up
You say my name like there could be an us
I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love"

How is it possible..
I'm trying to write my 'dear john' letter..with a lot of starts and stops..
how to say goodbye..how to move on..he was a huge part of who i was and what i've become..
Someday i wish he can read this..dearest friend. the one that got away...

But then again how do you walk away from someone you love
And take the road of friendship. Can you accept all that's happened..
And start over once again? I believe that I can, I know that I can but I just dont want to.
I don't want to let go of you...

"I am so ashamed,
I am so ashamed of all the trouble I have caused
I am so ashamed of all these unopened doors
I am so ashamed of what I have become

That oh, my heart is bursting again
Dont leave this mark
Your eyes are turning away"

You came into my life as quickly as you left. Its saddening how I have to spend my days trying to get used to this while you sleep peacefuly as though nothing happened. But Hearts truly don't breakeven now do they, unfortunately I'm the one who has to deal with the pain this time around.

Nothing hurts more than not knowing where you stand with someone, whether you're a priority or just another option, one of many when it comes to you. But for how long? How does one ever let go?

Your were like sand,
I gave you care and attention..
Then a strong gust of wind sifted you through my hands
I lost you yet again.

"A clean heart is hard to find my love, just try not to fall apart this time..." -John Mani

xoxo BendaloG

Kendick Lamar-Cloud 10

13 April 2011... 23:34

My Thoughts
I miss you... Feel like a piece of me has been taken from me. I feel incomplete and I have no worthy reason to be alive. "Why am I here? Why am I feeling like this? What has your love done to me?"
Life is unfair, it give me all I've ever wanted and more then in a split second, when I least expect it...It all fades into the darkness of the night. Yet another night lonely night, a broken heart & I'm a lost soul in tears...

Being in the presence of loved ones, yet feeling so alone. All I ever think about is you, how I miss you, long for you. All those moments we shared...

4th March-First time I kissed you, had a proper conversation. All the stupid things you said that night are now just memories...memories that I will cherish forever. "May I..." this question had me laughing all night, weird how you asked for permission when most guys just try their luck and see how far it gets them. You were a true gentleman that evening. :)

6th March-Spent time together, it was a lazy Sunday afternoon and you had just gotten back from Potch with the band. A lot happened on this day, I remember it like it was yesterday, it was as though we've known each other for years... I remember you laying next to me as I fell asleep and then you suddenly said "Oh shit, I need to call my girl and say goodnight" I freaked out as you made that call only to realise you were calling me (**,) I blushed and answered the call...
Talking to you on the phone yet you were right there next to me, "Bubu, goodnight okay.. wishing you the sweetest dreams..." =) It was official, I was falling for you and I loved every single moment of it.

From that day every day was a special one, late nights cuddling and chatting till I fell asleep then he would quietly sneak out and go to his place, a floor beneath mine.
18th March-We fought, I felt like shit the day after. Those two days without you felt like years, I hadn't cried this much because of a guy.
20th March-He called, came over sat next to me, kissed my forehead and said "Don't you ever cry because of me again, It breaks my heart seeing you like this". We cuddled, He sang to me till I fell asleep. Day after this we stayed indoors all day talking.

Because of all these moments, we became even closer & stronger, or at least thats what I thought.

But it was just the begining of many more arguements...Like the one about my past (._.) till today I don't know what it is exactly that you heard. We've had our share of ups and downs. Today I'm sitting here alone expressing my thoughts. All I have is this piece of paper and a pen. It's been almost a week since I last saw you...4 days since I heard your voice.

Been crying in the darkness of BC445 all by myself, this was once our space. Been trying to reach out to you but you keep pulling back and forth, letting me down. You gave up on us, and I just couldn't. But then again I can't force you to stay in this relationship.

It was hard for me but I had to let you go, decide what you want and what you felt was best for you. I found happiness with you but the JOY was what kept me with you. It's because of all of this that I am now stronger.

A womans tears can make her strong, independent and teach you how to Love again. After all true Love is a miracle.

"Not every person that's in-love is in a relationships and not every person in a relationship is in-love"

xoxo B*

When we fall...we fall hard.

Little did I realise
That first time I saw you
That one day I would tell you...
I Love You.

Little did I realise
That first time I held you
That one day would come...
I will need you so much.

Little did I realise
That first time I kissed you
That one day you would be...
The most importent person.

Little did I realise
Until I met you
But now that I have,
I need you...
Close to me always.

WOMENS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEYONCÉ-"Run The World (Girls)"

Girls, we run this motha (yeah!) [x4]
GIRLS!

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

[Verse 1:]
Some of them men think they freak this like we do
But no they don't
Make your check come at they neck,
Disrespect us no they won't

Boy don't even try to touch this
Boy this beat is crazy
This is how they made me
Houston Texas baby
This goes out to all my girls
That's in the club rocking the latest
Who will buy it for themselves and get more money later
I think I need a barber
None of these niggas can fade me
I'm so good with this,
I remind you I'm so hood with this
Boy I'm just playing
Come here baby
Hope you still like me
F- you pay me

My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power, with our love we can devour
You'll do anything for me

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

[Verse 2:]
It's hot up in here
DJ don't be scared to run this, run this back
I'm reppin' for the girls who taking over the world
Help me raise a glass for the college grads

41 rollin' to let you know what time it is, check
You can't hold me
I work my 9 to 5, better cut my check
This goes out to all the women getting it in,
You're on your grind
To other men that respect what I do
Please accept my shine
Boy I know you love it
How we're smart enough to make these millions
Strong enough to bear the children
Then get back to business
See, you better not play me
Oh, come here baby
Hope you still like me
F- you hate me

My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power
With our love we can devour
You'll do anything for me

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

Who are we? What we run? The world (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What we run? The world (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What do we run? We run the world! (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What we run? We run the world
Who run the world? Girls

Fiend or Friend??

Fiend: A diabolically evil or wicked person... We all know of one or two within our circle of friends.

You see the thing with us girls is that we befriend every second person who is nice to us, and two months down the line they become our new bestfriend. Most of these sudden bff situations don't last long though because we gossip so much. You'd swear it's a curse or some sort of dark cloud over us but sadly in this case, there is no silver lining.

For instance, you introduce your close friend(A) to another friend(B) who happens to live in the same area or go to the same Varsity as your buddy then the next thing they become best buddies. You start feeling left out because everytime you go on facebook or twitter you see pictures of them and status updates about how they're having a great time with so & so wherever WITHOUT you.
Then you tell another friend(C) within the circle about how you feel about this sudden bond and she goes and tells Friend A....BOOM now its a problem. The arguements and backstabbing begins, all of a sudden you're a hater and think you are more relevent than them blah blah blah...

In another scenario, joining a girl clique that has been there for years and suddenly become really close to one of them. You start telling them almost everything good and bad about yourself, this will backfire someday and you'll wish you had kept your mouth shut. You see the thing about "Ride & Die" girlfriends is that they defend each other no matter what the situation. They don't care if their friend is wrong all that they care about is that she says YOU hurt her!!!
Talking to such people is like talking to a drunk person...they have selective hearing, meaning they hear what they want or feel is important to them. Everything else remains a  total blur *shrugs* Then it hits you, maybe I shouldn't have told her, maybe this is Gods way of telling me something, maybe..maybe...I should've, I could've (._.) too late for those now, you're hurt and all alone. Back to square 1, finding new friends

Then there's the ultimate curse/weakness of all times... The Boyfriend, old or new this guy can destroy friendships but sometimes its not his intention.
There's a song by Lana Del Rey-This is what makes us girls, yes I named the blog after it, that i just can't stop listening to. I'll quote some of the things she says in the song:
"This is what makes us girls We all look for heaven and we put our love first Somethin' that we'd die for, it's our curse..."
"This is what makes us girls
We don't stick together 'cause we put our love first
Don't cry about him..."
This is very true, once we fall in-love thats all we care about, even if its for a little while. It hurts the ones around you when suddenly all you care about is your new boyfriend and don't have time for them but in most cases we wont complain, we just sit back and wait for it to fall apart then the gossiping starts.
A true friend warns you when you get yourself into a situation and if you persist we step back and wait... in the end we'll still be here to comfort you and tell you TO YOUR FACE that we told you so.
On the other hand a fiend will keep quiet in the begining, then start sms'n you telling your about your mans where-abouts etc. Once you see him for what he truly is, she'll be on some "yoh mngani uyanya yaz sorry" while behind your back she's saying "mxm who did she think she is?? oho sonke siyaz ukuthi uSiya* unje bekayaphi?? uyislima mina benginyeke shame etc"
Every girl clique has that one fiend who wants to be victim all the time, her bff tolerates her but deep inside she knows the truth. Fiends are bad for ones health but then I'll tell you more about em in the next post.

This is really sad, I mean I have different girl cliques in my life and as I grow older the less friends I have but my Ultimate Ride or Die Chinas still remain. The thing with me is that I can't hold grudges, but once you screw me over I cut you off for good depending on what you did, I'll still greet you and all but I'll also make it very clear where you belong in my life.
I have a hard time trusting people, I was hurt by a fiend in 2011 and I learnt my lesson but thats a different story...Just keep in mind that:
Not everyone who smiles with you is your friend!!!

xoxo B*