13 April 2011... 23:34

My Thoughts
I miss you... Feel like a piece of me has been taken from me. I feel incomplete and I have no worthy reason to be alive. "Why am I here? Why am I feeling like this? What has your love done to me?"
Life is unfair, it give me all I've ever wanted and more then in a split second, when I least expect it...It all fades into the darkness of the night. Yet another night lonely night, a broken heart & I'm a lost soul in tears...

Being in the presence of loved ones, yet feeling so alone. All I ever think about is you, how I miss you, long for you. All those moments we shared...

4th March-First time I kissed you, had a proper conversation. All the stupid things you said that night are now just memories...memories that I will cherish forever. "May I..." this question had me laughing all night, weird how you asked for permission when most guys just try their luck and see how far it gets them. You were a true gentleman that evening. :)

6th March-Spent time together, it was a lazy Sunday afternoon and you had just gotten back from Potch with the band. A lot happened on this day, I remember it like it was yesterday, it was as though we've known each other for years... I remember you laying next to me as I fell asleep and then you suddenly said "Oh shit, I need to call my girl and say goodnight" I freaked out as you made that call only to realise you were calling me (**,) I blushed and answered the call...
Talking to you on the phone yet you were right there next to me, "Bubu, goodnight okay.. wishing you the sweetest dreams..." =) It was official, I was falling for you and I loved every single moment of it.

From that day every day was a special one, late nights cuddling and chatting till I fell asleep then he would quietly sneak out and go to his place, a floor beneath mine.
18th March-We fought, I felt like shit the day after. Those two days without you felt like years, I hadn't cried this much because of a guy.
20th March-He called, came over sat next to me, kissed my forehead and said "Don't you ever cry because of me again, It breaks my heart seeing you like this". We cuddled, He sang to me till I fell asleep. Day after this we stayed indoors all day talking.

Because of all these moments, we became even closer & stronger, or at least thats what I thought.

But it was just the begining of many more arguements...Like the one about my past (._.) till today I don't know what it is exactly that you heard. We've had our share of ups and downs. Today I'm sitting here alone expressing my thoughts. All I have is this piece of paper and a pen. It's been almost a week since I last saw you...4 days since I heard your voice.

Been crying in the darkness of BC445 all by myself, this was once our space. Been trying to reach out to you but you keep pulling back and forth, letting me down. You gave up on us, and I just couldn't. But then again I can't force you to stay in this relationship.

It was hard for me but I had to let you go, decide what you want and what you felt was best for you. I found happiness with you but the JOY was what kept me with you. It's because of all of this that I am now stronger.

A womans tears can make her strong, independent and teach you how to Love again. After all true Love is a miracle.

"Not every person that's in-love is in a relationships and not every person in a relationship is in-love"

xoxo B*

When we fall...we fall hard.

Little did I realise
That first time I saw you
That one day I would tell you...
I Love You.

Little did I realise
That first time I held you
That one day would come...
I will need you so much.

Little did I realise
That first time I kissed you
That one day you would be...
The most importent person.

Little did I realise
Until I met you
But now that I have,
I need you...
Close to me always.

WOMENS MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEYONCÉ-"Run The World (Girls)"

Girls, we run this motha (yeah!) [x4]
GIRLS!

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

[Verse 1:]
Some of them men think they freak this like we do
But no they don't
Make your check come at they neck,
Disrespect us no they won't

Boy don't even try to touch this
Boy this beat is crazy
This is how they made me
Houston Texas baby
This goes out to all my girls
That's in the club rocking the latest
Who will buy it for themselves and get more money later
I think I need a barber
None of these niggas can fade me
I'm so good with this,
I remind you I'm so hood with this
Boy I'm just playing
Come here baby
Hope you still like me
F- you pay me

My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power, with our love we can devour
You'll do anything for me

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

[Verse 2:]
It's hot up in here
DJ don't be scared to run this, run this back
I'm reppin' for the girls who taking over the world
Help me raise a glass for the college grads

41 rollin' to let you know what time it is, check
You can't hold me
I work my 9 to 5, better cut my check
This goes out to all the women getting it in,
You're on your grind
To other men that respect what I do
Please accept my shine
Boy I know you love it
How we're smart enough to make these millions
Strong enough to bear the children
Then get back to business
See, you better not play me
Oh, come here baby
Hope you still like me
F- you hate me

My persuasion can build a nation
Endless power
With our love we can devour
You'll do anything for me

[Chorus:]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]
Who run this motha? Girls! [x4]
Who run the world? Girls! [x4]

Who are we? What we run? The world (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What we run? The world (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What do we run? We run the world! (who run this motha, yeah)
Who are we? What we run? We run the world
Who run the world? Girls